This nausea stuff is really slowing me down. I have lots of jewelry ideas but no energy to actually make anything lately.
Yesterday I managed to avoid nausea for the first few hours of the day so I made two necklaces and two pairs of earrings. Of course, the sea sick feeling kicked in before I had the energy to take photos. So I'll have to wait for another day to do that.
Hubby seems to think that I'll abandon my jewelry once the little bean comes. And even before it comes - I want to take some classes in July and he's trying (key word) to veto them because I'll be further along then (about 6 months).
I just don't see that. Do I have to stop being myself just because I have a rug rat? Will I now be defined ONLY as a mom? My mom had hobbies when we were younger. Well, when I was in third grade at least. She made the most beautiful porcelain dolls. And she was a master gardener for most of my pre and teen years.
I just don't want to be stuck in the garage. My mom laughed when I said I didn't plan to move my work station and said that I will teach my kid that certain things aren't toys. I know that's probably wishful thinking, but I am not looking forward to baby-proofing my home. Why can't a kid be taught that mommy's beads are off limits? That the fire place is HOT? Or that you don't eat dog food? Why is that so difficult a concept?
I know...the moms out there are probably laughing at me too. My mom is really looking forward to me having a kid just like me. Which honestly would suck. I was a brat!
I told my mom that I wanted to do the craft show at my work in November...it'll be a month after the munchkin arrives. She laughed.
I'm supposed to stop my life? It's the ONE show I want to do for the whole year...I can't get some help for the four to six hours it will take?
Besides that, Christmas season is the biggest selling season. I'm supposed to not sell my jewelry during that season because it's a newborn?
Can you tell that I'm conflicted? I refuse to give up on ME as a jeweler. And of course I want to be a good mom too. It can't be impossible to do both can it?